There’s something to be said about being brave enough to start something fresh. For as long as I could remember I’ve been a musician. It’s all I’ve ever known. While other creative pursuits came along the way in this journey called life, they were all rooted in my love for music. The feeling of going into the studio with an empty head, a blank canvas or in my case a blank notebook came second to none. Feeling the bass from the speakers, watching the candle burn as I combined words in my head at a mile a minute. No matter how much I did it, it never got old to me. Writing songs had become second nature to me. So much so that my turn around time for guest verses was always praised by other artists. The love I have for music is unmatched. Thats why the emptiness in my soul I feel from having not made even a beat in over a year has become more and more unbearable.
mas·och·ism
(in general use) the enjoyment of what appears to be painful or tiresome.
I haven’t been myself in over a year. The transition into tech has been one for the books. Which is why I decided to “Journal the Journey”. I’m an advocate for journaling as it serves as a way to release your inner most thoughts. I’m also not very good at publicly documenting my progress. Finishing up my #100DaysOfCode challenge in early September (more on that in a later article) was the last thing that I publicly documented. My willingness to share meaningful life updates has always been something I struggled with. I don’t find it easy to express vulnerability to strangers. Beyond the insignificant banter I’m able to able to spew in 280 characters on twitter, I’ve always found a way to be strategic about my transparency or lack thereof. So ironically enough, I’ll be using medium as a medium to channel what I’m feeling during this transitional phase in my life.
My empty notebooks and blank Pro Tools sessions have turned into white boards and new VsCode files. I’ve turned in my JBL headphones for Javascript, my Yamaha HS10 speakers for HTML and my microphone cables for CSS. And from the looks of it, these growing pains I’m feeling from being a complete beginner at something again isn’t enough to deter me. In the end I can only hope that it’ll be worth it. More on the journey soon. Thanks for tuning in.
